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… from Quran. Changing slowly, but surely.

Lesson 41 – My Protector March 9, 2011

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“And those who take as protectors others besides Him, Allah does watch over them; and you are not the disposer of their affairs.”

Surah Ash-Shura (Surah 42), verse 6

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Of late I’m noticing how I’m losing the utter trust I used to place on Allah for most of my matters and finding different people to fill in instead. I’m meeting new people, I’m finding comfort in the old and the new ones in my life, I’m falling in love with some, out with others, I’m gravitating towards qualities I’ve always admired and holding on to this person for reason “a”, that person for reason “c” and that other person for reasons “d”, “f”, “q” etc. Of course with all this loving and discoveries comes a realization that none of these will ever come even close to perfection and that they will disappoint me and that the void I’ll feel as a consequence to those disappointments will be something I’ll have to deal with on my own. I’m not trying as hard anymore to better myself, more out of the excuse of never being able to attain perfection (in human form) than anything else; what I need to inculcate fully is the conviction that whatever I try to do will be rewarded with and the more I try, the more I’ll get CLOSE to what I admire as opposed to staying stupidly and frustratingly stagnant.

Anyway, so all these transitions of late and turbulent interactions and I hit upon this verse that talks about protection and how He’s the Only Protector really – not this friend for a certain aspect of my life, not a parent for another. I’m coming to understand that this human psyche of wanting things in tangible forms is pretty much equivalent to the losers who asked the Messengers of miracles, of signs, of proofs to convince them of the God they (the Messengers) talked about having to obey and worship. We ARE those losers and sadly enough, we seek for signs most days of the week, we seek reassurance from humans, we convince ourselves that this person or that has our back. I, for one, keep waiting for SOMETHING to happen before I can fully apply the knowledge I’m trying to gain. I either keep myself away from texts that I know will help me or I read them and not apply them because of this reason or that. EITHER WAY, I’M TOTALLY GETTING IT WRONG! I have to start doing things from today, from now on. I have to get the answers and bring changes now… and I have to do them with the understanding that all the people I’m holding on to in my life because of the beauty I see in them, well they are His CREATIONS… meaning He’s SO MUCH MORE than all that beauty combined, meaning the world should stand on one side and Him on the other. ALWAYS! Whatever I do for His pleasure will always give me more peace if only I were to truly apply that and not just talk about it. And I’m pretty sure if all I do is for His pleasure, His Mercy would translate into everything falling perfectly in place through the tests and the rewards, through the good times and the bad He Plans out for me. It’s just about placing trust in the Deity that convinces me of His unending Mercy and Protection and Friendship if I’m interpreting this correctly, not once but at least six times (48: 6, 9, 28, 31, 44, 46) in the same Surah!

If, however, and this is where it can get scary, I choose to find solace in the people He’s Blessed me with and not Him completely… I’m doomed. I won’t see it; I’ll feel great about the people in my life, the material gains He’ll still Allow to happen but soon enough my utter stupidity will become clear and my misdirections thanks to nafs and arrogance will lose all meaning just like that. Just like that! When you’ve become part of the rat race of this life you stop seeing things. My vision is blurry at the moment but I’m trying to understand and I seek His Protection, more from my own nafs than the world around me. May He Guide me better and Help me in the journey I’m trying to resume.

The reason why I’m not hitting upon the latter bit of this verse is because first I need to rid myself of the need for people and take Him as My Protector alone before wondering about other people using people and machines as fillers for the voids in their lives. Regardless, I’m not responsible for other people anyway.

 

Lesson 2 – Wear Your Armor Before You Start Reading February 8, 2010

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“When you read Quran (prior to that) seek protection with Allah against Shaitaan, the accursed.”

Surah Al-Nahl (Surah 16), verse 98

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This goes out to all the atheists and agnostics, all the people who’re finding excuses to continue to “live it up”. See, shaitaan is the one who put the idea of not having to believe in the first, to not have any real accountability for things; he’s the one who makes the idea of 4 wives look immoral (just off the top of my head) without letting you think about the reason behind why it was allowed in the first place. shaitaan knows how a human mind works… for EACH individual, he has a different strategy. So let’s see, when you finally decide to read Quran with an open mind, you may think you’re thinking freely and you’re being logical and smart but you don’t know how the ugly faced shaitaan is forming images in your head, you don’t know how he’s distracting you, you don’t know what tricks he’s going to use to push you away from the truth and from Allah’s message. When you’ve read the Quran enough and you feel like you’re surely on the right path now, shaitaan, who was sitting right behind you all this time, the loser that he is, will envelop you with feelings of pride and of arrogance, maybe self-righteousness too thereby efficiently pulling you into his trap.

So…

every time when you read the Quran, you WILL have to seek Allah’s protection so that whatever good that’s to come out of your reading, you understand (and apply) it fully… and whatever makes you question Allah’s message you find your answers soon enough, so you don’t fall in doubt, denial and similar vices, while you’re still seeking answers.

These are all little traps you think you’re too smart for… but NOOOOO! There are much too many thorns around here, each step has to be scrutinized, each decision has to be taken with the thought of  “Allah” vs “shaitaan”.

Other than this, here you can see Allah is subtly saying you can only seek His protection, you don’t need a bodyguard or a best friend or a jinn… only Him. Also, He is calling shaitaan, the “accursed”. Allah is pure and He is cursing shaitaan?? That’s gotta tell you something!

Disclaimer: I’m still struggling with so many things so there are going to be things on the blog that’ll raise your eyebrows and say, “Say whaaa?! What is this chick talking about??!?! Wasn’t she the one who watched that movie or did that?”

I understand that’ll continue to be a problem, but I’m trying to find myself through this experiment and I’m trying to spread goodness in a way I feel comfortable with… I’ll appreciate it if you kept the negativity away and just shared your viewpoints. All kinds of comments are welcome, as long as they are within an obviously evident (theme of the blog) decorum.